lawns suck, grow hearts instead

maybe
there is hope for someone like me after all
because when i look into the eyes
of a stranger
i feel hope
instead of resolute

and maybe 
that shows growth somehow
like the grass did get greener
but not because 
it's on the other side

but because i cultivated,
and watered,
and worked hard for that shit. 

so yeah, 
i deserve good things.

so maybe 
it took the break 
to breakthrough.